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I have just witnessed a great, shining moment in American history. I just watched Senator Obama deliver his winning speech. It was moving. I think thousands in the crowd, and millions watching on TV were moved to tears. I was. I feel proud of my country again. I feel hope that things will change. I feel optimistic about my future. I finally deeply admire and respect a political figure, after so many years of disappointment, anger and betrayal.
I'm so happy to have witnessed this, so proud to have been a part of it. I voted for Obama.
A Change we need!
I am ready for this change. I am ready for the sacrifices it will take to make this change. I am ready to work together for change. I am eager to move forward into a brighter future.

Poll #1246188 what should my title be?
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I have created an online website to sell my designs. I want to be offiliated with my dad, Backstreet Leather, but I want it to be apparent that I am another entity. The banner on the site will say "whatever title I choose" by Backstreet Leather

you can check out my site at www.backstreetleather.etsy.com
and my dad's site at www.backstreetleather.com

so, I probably have either the beginnings of an ulcer or hiatal hernia.
for the past three days, every time I eat, no matter what it is, I am extremely nauseous and have to burp a ton immediately after eating, and either immediately after eating or later on, I have pretty bad heartburn. I have had heartburn almost all day long today. I have had no spicy food at all and very little sugar. its really frustrating because I am HUNGRY and i don't have an appetite because i feel so bad all the time and even more so after eating. when I leave to go to tony's house I'm going to stop and get some antacids.
I'm just so uncomfortable all the time. its making me scared to eat anything, and then I get so hungry, so I eat, and then I feel horrible.
UGGGHH
my mom is gonna try to get me an appointment with her doctor before we leave for Tennessee, and if not then after we get back.

I take frozen lean quisine / weight watchers meals to work because they're cheap and don't make me fat....
and then on my break I go and get a giant "poop" cookie from panera.
oops

I am growing tired with this journal. I feel like none of my userpics fit me anymore, my layout is tired and mundane. I really need to learn how to made my own layout. I have three journals, and this one is the original. maybe i'll get a paid account for this username. that would be hot.
when I have some money.
I just got back from costa rica about a week and a half ago. here is my travel journal, which has yet to be completed:
http://www.traveljournals.net/travelers/ali13/
you can go there and check out the first half of my adventure. I'll update the rest in a few days
maybe i'll go check out the free layouts.
I wish I had html knowledge

my apartment comlplex is scrubbing the balconies with bleach......
and then hosing it off with water.
we are less that 100 feet from a local stream....

people in Eastern NC are complete morons.

http://www.instructables.com/id/Mobile-Stripper-Pole-no-need-to-attach-to-ceiling/

gas is so expensive. I make $7 an hour. that means that I work about 40 minutes for one gallon of gas. How is this sustainable? No one is going to be able to do anything. comerce is gonna come to a halt over the summer. I am frustrated by being in this no-man's land that is greenville. Over the summer I will want to be in either Raleigh or at the beach, both of which are about an hour and a half away. which means gas money. Tony is moving to Raleigh. so to see each other, we will have to spend lots of money. its scary to think about what the cost of gas affects. it affects shipping costs and the cost of plastic, plane tickets, train tickets, tuition (because buses cost more to run) everything gets more expensive but minimum wage won't increase. Our lives aren't set up to be gas-effecient. there is no bus that will take me to work. its too far away to bike, and even if it was closer, there are no sidewalks and no bike lanes on a road that is 45mph.
I am going to have to talk to chip and james about a gas stipend because money is tight and i spend lots of money driving out there to ride. Tony doesn't think they'll give it to me.
I can't imagine being able to afford living expenses after I graduate. I also can't imagine having to work 40 hours a week. It so miserable.
lately I have been really sensitive about how much time i spend with tony. I want to spend as much time as I can with him and i get really dissapointed when I don't get to. I guess i'm gonna have to get over that fast because he's moving to raleigh and we won't see as much of each other. i think a big part of it is that he rarely wants to stay here. I usually end up staying there. while I understand why he wants to stay there, becuase my apartment is messy, sometimes it feels like its not worth the inconvenience to him. I'm working hard tonight to get the place cleaned up, because it pretty much is a constant pig-sty. I did the dishes, took out the trash, will take the recycling out tomorrow. now I have to work on my room. :(

09:05am]
spokeninstars
I have a few minutes until the bus comes...

1. ROCK STAR NAME: (pet, current car): Cookie Buick

2. GANGSTA NAME: (fav ice cream flavor, favorite Kind of shoe): dark chocolate combat boot

3. HIPPY NAME: (what you ate for breakfast, fav tree): Waffle Maple

4. SOAP OPERA NAME: (middle name, city where you were born): Marie Raleigh

5. STAR WARS NAME: (the first 3 letters of your last name, first 2 of your first name): Willali (that works well huh!)

6. SUPERHERO NAME: (favorite color, favorite drink): Blue Cream Soda

7. NASCAR NAME: (the first names of your grandfathers/grandmothers): Julia June

8. STRIPPER NAME: (the name of your favorite perfume/cologne/scent, favorite candy): Instinct Cocoa

10. TV WEATHER ANCHOR NAME: (Your 4th grade teacher’s last name, a city that starts with the same letter): Carter Cincinatti

11. SPY NAME: (your favorite season/holiday, flower): Autumn wildflower

12. CARTOON NAME: Strawberry Granny-Panty
*EXTRA STRIPPER NAME: So I heard that the stripper name is (childhood pet, street you grew up on): Cookie Manchester

I am so over this computer. I am soooo close to taking out another loan just so I can buy a PC laptop. Fuck macintosh. don't ever buy one. they fucking suck. user friendly my fucking ass.
I took it to the apple store and they installed a new operating system, the latest and greatest. even they couldn't find the music that magically dissapeared.
my stupid retarded computer can't locate my music files. I have to go through and locate the file for each and every song. and I have about 10 gigs of music. I don't have that kind of time. I have done EVERYTHING suggested by forums and on the computer support community here on livejournal. did any of it work? no. of course not.
if computers didn't cost thousands of dollars, this one would have gotten run over and then blown up, and I would have gone out and bought a brand new one, and not a mac.
I am so over this. I just want to listen to my FUCKING MUSIC

so i've had this pair of jeans hanging on my closet door, with a sign on them that says "goal pants"
my goal was to fit into them. I have been eating right and sticking with a really good exercise program and now, my goal pants are now everyday jeans. I wore them for the first time today. so Yay for me!!

Me and Tony are going to stay in a hotel for a night during spring break to treat ourselves. We were going to drive to the beach and go camping, but all of the campgrounds are either closed or under renovations. :( We can get a nice hotel room here in Greenville for what we would be paying in gas money. And we'll be able to be really comfortable and relax. I think we're gonna end up staying at the Hotel City Bistro.

and for future reference. I AM NEVER BUYING AN APPLE EVER AGAIN. FUCKING USER FRIENDLY MY FUCKING ASS
I WANT TO THROW THIS PIECE OF SHIT OFF MY BALCONY

Tony got me this very pretty and expensive pendant from Crystal Connection. He picked it out all by himself! I'm so proud, and as Dani would say, he done good!



This Valentines couldn't have been more perfect!

photobucket is a big piece of crap.
I have rotated and resized the same photo 4 times, but when I link to it in my livejournal, it is unaltered. WTF

FUCK THE POST OFFICE

at the moment, I fucking hate life. I HATE school.
I had tomorrow all planned out. Tonight I was FINALLY going to get to spend quality time with my boyfriend. not rushed, have to get up early or surrounded by people time. but real quality time. and I was going to sleep in and catch up on sleep i'm missing. and I was going to go ride horses and clean my room. then go to the seafood cookout that my work is holding for us. then go home and do homework and sleep with tony.
BUT. NO. FUCKING NO.
i get an email, a reminder. I have to be at the FUCKING ROPES COURSE from 8am to 3pm tomorrow. no getting to just chill. no getting things done tomorrow. because I have to do that shit.
FUCK SCHOOL.
i hate this. school needs to stay at school. it needs to stop invading my weekends. next semester if I look at a syllabus and there is something on a weekend, I will go up to the teacher and say I will tell you right now I won't be there. if that will fail me I'll drop this class.
the ONLY thing that should impact weekends is long term papers/projects. not required time at a specific loation.
it seems like I never get a fucking break.

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be loving you
When mountains crumble to the sea
there will still be you and me
Kind a-woman, I give you my all, kind a-woman, nothing more

Little drops of rain whisper of the pain
Tears of loves lost in the days gone by
My love is strong, with you there is no wrong
Together we shall go until we die, my, my, my
An inspiration's what you are to me, inspiration, look and see

And so, today, my world, it smiles
Your hand in mine, we walk the miles
A-thanks to you, it will be done
for you to me are the only one, alright, yeah
Happiness, no more be sad, happiness, I'm glad

If the sun refused to shine, I would still be lovin' you
M-mountains crumble to the sea, there will still be you and me

So I go to East Carolina University. Greenville, NC has a pretty high crime rate. Last week, one of our friends was shot up the street when seven people broke into his house where he had some friends over, robbed all 11 people and then shot him twice. and it happened up the street from my boyfriend's house, and less than a block from ECU's chancellor's house. (see previuos entry)
There are currently six checkpoints set up where you have to stop and show your lisence. Greenville has hired extra forces from SEVEN other counties just for tonight. There is a police helicopter circling over the neighborhood.
I feel like I live in a warzone.
its hard to celebrate when you live in fear.

actions speak louder than words

OMG! so. I have horsies to ride!!!! Tony found a post on the ECU student tradepost about a person needing an experienced english rider to exercise horses for fun. So I called the number and left a message. He called me back this morning. The guy and his partner just adopted a baby and are really busy caring for it and don't have enough time to exercise their horses. They have three horses. Two are half-drafts and the other is a halflinger. One half draft is half percheron half thoroughbred and the other is half thoroughbred half belgian. Hell yeah. Three big horses to ride. The halflinger is three years old and greenbroke so he will be a little hard to handle. But I mean...I galloped Moses, the 2500 pound 3 year old draft stud across the fairgrounds bareback, so I should be able to handle the halflinger in a saddle. He asked that I always wear a helmet when I ride and I have to sign a waiver so in case I get hurt I can't sue them. They live 20 minutes away. Its perfect. I am riding into Raleigh tomorrow with Tony to get a new riding helmet because mine is screwed up. I am going out there on Monday to meet him and go for a ride. I am soooo excited. Finally horses I can ride that I don't have to pay to ride, and big half drafts like I love. He asked about my experience with horses and seemed pretty impressed. The only thing I am worried about is the fact that it has been sooo long since I've been on the back of a horse. Well, sooo long for me. Its been about 6 months. Which for me is a really long time.
And its autumn, the best time to go riding. And they have trails and a ring and jumps! Its freaking perfect. I am soooo excited. Thank you TONY!!
now I have to go to bed because I have to get up at 5am.
money has to be better than sleep in many situations.

(in no particular order)
0 go to Burning Man
0 learn to trick ride
0 have all 3 splits
0 go out of the country
0graduate college
0 go on an epic climbing trip
0 actually learn to play bass
0 belly dance in front of people
0 get my back tuck
0 trip shrooms
0 learn to play didjeridoo
0 spin fire poi
0 get another piercing
0 learn to samba and tango

ok so I can't think ok 25 at the moment. but i'll get back to it...